Dreams,People and Me.

It has been 1 and 1/2 years since i blogged,i felt like my creativity and thoughts drained out completely and feared that i could never write again,but one fine evening i realized that my happiness,my strength and my passion lies only in writing.Let nature give me the power of capturing the beliefs and imaginations flowing in my mind into magical words.

I see this 1 and 1/2 years gap as a distance between the dream and reality.In reality i am doing what everyone else are doing, in dream i am a unique self-willing personality.Anyway i started to move towards my dreams as slow as a snail. There is a huge difference between the 'me' who made the last posting in this blog and the 'me' who is making this posting right now.

I have met a diverse kind of people with assorted personalities,but i could classify human beings in two ways-The ones who CAN make it.
The ones who CANNOT make it.

The ones who CAN make it - They are aggressive,compelling,convincing,winning.They achieve what they conceive,they can voice out their desires and convert it into possibility.

The ones who CANNOT make it - They are hesitant,sacrificing,timid,indecisive,losing.They are shy to speak out their aspirations and wants to shrink in their comfort zone.

Evolution - A curse in disguise.

When i first read Darwin's evolution theory,it was totally fascinating and awesome,and every time i come across the concept,i felt the same captivation,imagination of the old world gives so much pleasure,because i consider my current life in a so-called civilized society as a curse.

                      Everything is fake in the present world,everyone running behind reputation,ambitions and other associated meaningless things.Humans give self-created importance to such things and lose the real significance of life.People behave against nature in all terms,physically and mentally.

                        Invisible clutches are tied on all parts of body and mind,making us unable to move ahead naturally,we are expected to satisfy everyone starting right from small bacterias in the society.I strongly wish i were born as a Neanderthal or any other species such as homo erectus,in whose world there is no jealousy,no myths,no partitions,no superiority,no terrorism,no accidents, and no obsessions.

                                     i believe no one is completely happy in this commitment oriented world,everyone is compromising something for every other people in their surrounding.

The world now revolves around some silly beliefs like-

• Education is only way to success.
• Black skin symbolizes ugliness.
• Money earning is the ultimate achievement.
• Establishing status is vital.
• Certain activities spoil our reputation.

I wonder why people hang upon status and reputation,for all,after 100 years no one will be there to think or talk about our lives,unless we do something great like shakespeare or leonardo davinci.

actually evolution goes like - animal-human-beast(as now),only beasts destroys nature and defeat each other,like us.

I close the eyes to see a ardent dream of running along a lovely dark forest,swimming in the lakes,residing under trees,with close to heart people and living a satisfied life with available resources.

"your thing,my thing" mentality is the root for all differences and greediness,how world would be if every thing is common! 

Evolution made life difficult,it taught us only to run behind something or everything,and to stick to some principles created by some cunning ancestors.

i wish i would have arrived to earth before rules are framed,and differences are made,but that is another impossible dream of me!

caution!!

Nowadays,forwarding and recieving messages became a part of our existence,and some messages fall into our inbox with a tag-"send to your friends if you really care",the tone of the note is in such a manner,that if we do not send,our friends will fall ill immediately,care flows only if there is a free message service in the network :D,and the context of the message is that if we handle a particular thing,it will cause cancer.

There are variety of cautions-"dont scratch the mobile top-up card,it will cause cancer", "dont drink rose milk(!),the essence causes cancer, "dont drink appy fizz,it contains cancer causing agent", "dont eat hybrid tomato,it causes cancer"............the list is unending,soon they may say "dont eat food,it may cause cancer",and in some special occasions brain tumor is also given a place.

The question is who is initiating such messages,and sometimes mails,and what is the proof?
It may or may not be true,but people are using those stuff for decades and are in fine condition,some of them might have acquired the above mentioned diseases,but only the cells in their bodies knows the origin of the disease.

People get bewildered by such cautions and anyway it cannot be ignored,and as days pass by ,it became a regular activity to avoid such agents employed by Mr.cancer.

And health tips reaching our inbox need a special mention,i cannot forget an instance when my mobile beeped to announce that-"German scientists have discovered that people who watch persons of opposite gender for 10 mins/day,remain healthy forever(?!)";)
 and sometimes they say-"if you drink 8 glasses of water a day,no disease will approach you",i wonder if one drinks 8 glasses of water and keep gulping rose milk,will cancer come or not?
some people send eating banana makes you as thin as a stick...and some tell banana causes obesity.
which one to believe?

and finally-"too much of thinking is not good for health",
so - "its all in the game"

Graduation blues........

And finally me too became a graduate,but i didn't get such a feel till now,because i still feel like a school girl.
I heard people will get bored up to the core,once they became an unemployed graduate,but i felt that for only 1 or 2 days,as i am engaged in some useless activities all the time.
Whoever meets me keep pouring ideas for my future....and most of them suggest higher studies,but i cannot talk much openly to tell them,that getting graduated itself appeared too high for me :)
I prefer to get settled in a simple job,and lead a simple life,with lot of books,some music,and many friends.
But everyone says i must work in big company because i am an engineer,and be busy like a bee,i do not think so,as i only know that i wrote all irrelevant things,which originated in my imaginative mind in the exams....and i feel "no-more-exams-in-life".
In our country,education is totally related with job,every one studies something only aiming at monetary benefits,and they miss the pleasure of learning,i hate such an education,which is almost like a trade,spending at one place,and earning at other.
But my actions are always against my opinions...and i also make my resume fly all over the web,stating my qualifications.
i feel bad when i think i don't have any good work to do in day-to-day life,that chases me towards job-searching activities.
lets see what happens when future unfolds....

silence for months...

I have been silent for several months,blogging seemed to be difficult,brain seemed to become vacant suddenly,i hope to write something every day,but days pass on,without any intention.

I have reached the final stage of my formal(useless) education,till now i had something to do in life,but now the future became a mystery,i prefer sitting idle on the roof of the building and looking at the sky all the time,but the world doesn't leave me to live on my own terms,everybody has plans for me,and i am like a dead fish swimming along the stream.

people may be ready to hear my ideas on my life,but i myself don't know what i want,i am left clueless.Thinking upon thinking leads to greater confusion,this stage of my life is experiencing more thinking,i would rather reply that i am a thinker in profession than engineer or any stupid thing.

i want to grow up again,if given a chance.

i feel that i am viewed as a silly useless human being by others,or it may be my own view of myself,i hope to do something to justify my existence,but what to do?i wonder why people do the same old stuff of studying-working-marrying-moneymaking--- and such sort of things,and they keep embarrassing the people who are reluctant towards these things.

Being different and existing in this world requires some skills,which i lack,days pass on wondering about people who live on their own terms and make great things happen....

varying colours of life...

life is all about sitting and dreaming

almost like a girl surfing the world sitting

at the side of the window,as the world moves over

the life passes by without informing me

the gains and losses,

the losses pass me through like a speedy wind,

and there is no trace of gains in life,

ray of hopes appear to move far away,

the counterparts seem to climbup the ladder

and i seem to fall belowground,

ages passby with nothing fruitful gained

through this mighty brain,

the feeling of worthlessness fills the air,

yet,i continue painting the canvass of dreams

though the reality splashes water on it..

Its my life!!

Our country is usually famous for family values and sentiments.All people live within a family's control.This system benefits some dominant minded people who even tend to bend the back bone of the family members according to their will and wish.
I wonder how such human beings live without a slight thinking that others too have their own life.
some people think that their spouse and off-springs obey them out of respect ad love,but it is sad that they even die without knowing that they obeyed his/her commands only out of fear and they dont have even minimum respect for them.
The indecent intrusion into other's life starts early at the morning itself and extends till night by asking "didnt you sleep?why the light is on?....",some body sleeps at some time,what is your problem,are they sitting in your eyes?
They always live in an illusion and imagination that they are leading and controlling the home in a great way!
such people are unaware that they are sowing seeds of hatred on other's mind and growing it into a big tree day by day.They tend to decide what others should eat,where they must go...and all private affairs of others.The usual dialouge heared in indian homes is "you dont want that".
In some big families about 20-30 persons adjust to satisfy the oldest authouritative person in the family,aren't such persons performing directorship in the home are ashamed to be life-long hurdles to the happiness of their own relations?
whoever it is,a person have their own life to live!!
Respect should be given to others privacy and rights,and there will be no conflicts if all people live their own life.

The oldest art on earth

The joy of creation is the purpose of art.The only creation which gives pleasure to all our senses is cooking.A person who knows to eat must know to cook,thats the basic knowledge needed to live.

I started my cooking venture pretty late,at the age of 16,i remember it was a new year day.I just decided to cook because i was bored eating the old stuff,nobody was around except a servant maid who was constantly giggling on seeing what i was doing.I had a discussion with a friend and came up with an innovative idea of adding potato chips to a gravy of odd vegetables.I had starting troubles,but i was able to mix many things and kindle,which is probably the most essential ability for a cook,that dish was a success and i was doing only that occasionaly for the next one year.

After that i began collecting many recipe books and articles in magazines and i often take them and read,but won't do anything.i think most people are like that.after a while i developed interest to do a thing named kachori,as read in a book,it involves frying the dry fruits and stuffing in wet bread and then frying,i love challenges,so i took up this,as i drowned the bread in the water,it dissolved into pieces.I had a tough time in making it into a shape,after several hours of trial,i finished it,and i bite it,then only i realized that the salt in the bread went alongside with the water,we ate some pieces,and the remaining slept in the fridge before reaching its destination-the dustbin!

Exactly two weeks after that,i wanted to do something healthy,so i grinded amla and mixed it with turmeric powder and parched rice(it sounds silly no,i read about it in a leading magazine!),that was terrible and immediately thrown away...another day i plunged into action of doing fruit salad,i mixed the custard powder in boiling milk and lost myself in the unknown territory of thoughts,but my hands kindling it,after a while,i took it away to the table,only to see it becoming like cake,i inserted apple pieces on it,and told every one that it was custard apple!

once i even called my friends with confidence on my cooking skills,i planned to do fried rice,which took many forms and finally became egg rice.

I try my hand in many such things like cutlet,rolls atleast once a month,i believe practice gives perfection.I hate doing the same things everyday,doing everything with a difference and variety adds spice to life.